Saturday, May 30, 2009

Trees

Many moons ago I was writing about something.  I honestly don't remember what.  Look for some post that I mention trees in it.  But I kept writing about trees instead of the matter at hand.  Well, I feel like ranting about trees.  Because I like them.  They're pretty.  And strong.  Good for climbing and shade and are beautiful in both summer and winter.  Not everyone can be described like that.

One of my favorite characters in all of the Lord of the Rings is the Ents.  They are such majestic and tragic characters.  Their Ent-wives have left them to a place no one knows.  The flowers were never quite the same without them.  They are slow to anger, but develop a great and mighty wrath over time.  I find that many people are like Ents, or rather trees in general.

We are ever changing.  From the time we are a sapling we are changing.  Like a tree, for the most part, it is easy to tell what type of tree we will grow up to be.  Tall or short, thin or stout, brittle or flexible, strong or weak.  But most young trees tend to be flexible.  Most old trees tend to be steadfast.  Just like us.  As we age, there are just certain characteristics we tend to take on.  No one can know the worth of a tree until it has come of age.  In youth, all tree serves the same purposes of growing up and filtering the air for their animal counterparts.  But until the tree is older and man or some other animal has need of it, it's purpose and worth cannot be measured.  A maple tree might be kept in a more natural state which it grew up in and be used for saps and syrups or it might travel and in its travels be transformed into timber and then into floors and desks and wardrobes.  An apple tree might never move from the spot it grew up on and produce basic foods for others or it might be tranferred to a factory and be used in the fermentation of beers or the preparation of meats.  A cottonwood might forever plague its neighbors by agitating their allergies and forcing them to do more work in a defense to keep the cottonwoods from spreading to another lawn or it might...I honestly don't know what good cottonwoods can do...I kind find them annoying myself.  But that furthers the point doesn't it, some trees are just annoying and always will be except to those few people who don't have allergic reactions to them.

Another thing about trees is if you spend a great deal of time cultivating them and they don't turn out the way you wanted them to, we are often disappointed.  Apple trees are hard work.  In the 9 years I lived on a farm cultivating apple trees, we only had two harvests worth dealing with.  Other than that, the trees were pretty and annoying obstacles for moving the lawn.  It wasn't until recently that I realized how selfish I was.  Yes, my family did not enjoy the intended fruits of our labors, but we had a beauty all to ourselves and a lazy place to rest our heads in the sun.  When a tree is a sapling, it is hard to identify, but we shouldn't be disappointed when it grows up to be a beech instead of an apple, because we still helped something grow and helped make the world.

Finally, in raising a tree proper, there are a few curiousities I find.  It grows best alone.  When hiking, one often sees groups of two or three trees (or more) growing in a tight little circle.  Sometimes those trees grow together into one conglomeration, but what usually happens is one tree kills the others off in order to survive.  Trees grow best alone, away from their mother tree (I know most tree are hermaphrodites, all except junipers actually, but it's still the mother half that gives birth), in a harsh environment.  There is a reason seeds have a way of getting out into the world.  If they just fell straight down, most older trees would end up killing them.  Except most pine trees, because pine trees require less light, let more light through, and often work together in tight-knit groups to survive fires and winds. (all trees have developed their own communities to survive and grow alone or work together to survive large disasters.  Sounds familar)  Also, when I say harsh environment, I don't mean desert, I mean a place they have to strive to live.  Example, a tree that is watered every day often dies or is uprooted because its roots to not need to search for its own water source to live.  The roots never form a stable foundation so when the winds come the tree fails.  I feel like our roots are our identity.  If we are too sheltered by our friends and family, once a trial comes we are unable to withstand the test.  We have to search for ourselves and decide for ourselves who we are, what we stand for, and what that makes us.  Also, strangely enough, a tree needs to be pruned fairly regularly too.  If not, it becomes a tangled mess of broken branches, lifelessleaves, and catastrophic canopies.  It can't receive light where it needs it.  Well pruning keeps us from getting top heavy.  It keeps our egos in check and our information straight.  It lets us receive light and truth where we need it most, our core leaves or ideas.  If we aren't pruned properly and regularly, we become a mangled mass of knowledge and have no way of expanding in a way that improves ourselves.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Seven Deadly Sins

So most of this was thought out a very long time ago, but I like it.

A lot of times it seems that the actual purpose of a law or commandment may have been lost throughout the ages. Either because people no longer have the same problems they once had or they are advancing and are given higher laws which are more encompassing. Originally the commandment was thou shalt not murder (or thou shalt not kill depending on your translation of the Bible), but Jesus Christ said, "But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire" (Matthew 5: 22). Instead of just murder being wrong, humans are told to no longer be angry at each other lest they be judged and condemned. It isn't enough for us to control our physical actions; we must control the emotions we feel for each other too.

So, in order to be sacrilegious and silly, I rewrote the Seven Deadly Sins how I felt they should be in this modern age. I feel it should be said that I don't judge people according to any of these. I just think they could help some people, but are not required to be happy or accomplish anything involving this life or the one after.

  1. Lust. I know it's in the original seven, give me a break. It is still a very serious problem for a lot of people. But I define it slightly differently than I usually hear. Lust is the fulfilling of physical/sexual desires solely for the fulfillment of physical/sexual desires. Two people having sex is not wrong if done correctly. Sex is a very intimate act and should be a mutual experience. Both parties should want it, enjoy it, and be happier because of it. If either party is participating for no reason other than to be satisfied I think it is wrong, mostly because it is a betrayal. An act as intimate as sex needs to be shared at many levels, but if one person isn't sharing the emotional connection sex should form, they are forsaking their companion's emotions and that is quite rude if you ask me. Lust does not apply to sex only either. Any desire to be physically satisfied for no reason other than to be physically satisfied is greedy and selfish. If someone wants to discover what turns them on or figure out what feels good to them, they don't have a singular goal to be satisfied; their goal is to learn as well. But staring at pornography for hours, in example, is wrong, because it, in almost every case, serves no purpose other than to satisfy some strange desire to be physically satisfied, but not emotionally. That's why it is wrong, to be truly happy we have to be satisfied on more levels than just physically. Giving in to such base desires with no higher goal is reducing ourselves to something less than the beauty we are.
  2. Hatred. I find that hatred follows wrath rather closely, but it's more in-depth.  It is not enough to simple control our physical outbursts to non-violent means against a person.  In fact, often times refusing to be physically damaging to a person and being creative in the way we punish them can be more hateful and destructive than simply beating them up.  Thoughts create emotions and emotions create actions, so unless we can stop the hate at the thoughts (which are really hard to control without years of practice and conditioning) or emotions, we're gonna end up hurting someone else as well as our self.I have found the best breeding ground for hate is when we refuse to forgive someone.  And sometimes forgiveness is hard.  Like, really hard.  But we've gotta do it, because if don't forgive others their trespasses who are we to expect others to forgive us of our sins?But I also mean hatred towards ourselves.  For a lot of people, loving and accepting others is easy, but learning to love ourselves is the much more difficult battle.  We have to learn to love ourselves before we can truly learn to love others.  And it is hardest to forgive ourselves when we know we are wrong.
  3. Waste.  So often today people just waste.  They waste time, resources, energy.  It reminds me of what sloth used to mean.  It wasn't the sitting around doing nothing that was wrong, it was the fact that they were missing out on so much around them.  Today, we waste our time online, on games, on cellphones, on blogs..., and on so many little things.  We are accomplishing nothing of value.  Granted, sometimes you learn something really cool or new online, but is it worth the hours you spent otherwise?  I enjoy Facebook as much as the next, but I try to use it just to check up on what is going on and make sure my friends are still alive and well.  A lot of the time, I use computers to help me relax.  I play mindless games, chat with no purpose, and increase my nerdery through various webcomics and websites.  It helps me detox at the end of the day, but I shouldn't do it so much.  Wasting my time and energy on things that provide no enlightenment or improvement wastes ourselves.
    I also believe that we often waste opportunities all too often.  We could do great and amazing things, except we choose to be comfortable and safe.  As I did not overtly say, but meant before we too often choose what makes us feel safe instead of what can improve us and make us happy.  Life is an adventure, so let's be adventurous.
  4. Deception.  Preventing others from learning the truth.  Lies.  Little ones, white ones, little white ones, big ones, huge ones, destructive ones, ones concerning the ancestry of a child, any lie is a lie.  But I have found that lies are often not the problem, it is when we deceive deliberately.  We avoid subjects and conflicts.  We beat around the bush.  We spin words in such a way so that we are not lying, but we're keeping half the truth locked-up.  This is, usually, not far to either party because the one who knows is refusing to share the burden, probably harboring ill thoughts, which leads to #2, and that's no good for a relationship.  It isn't fair to the other side either though because they can do no good to save the relationship.  We've got to be honest and not just the bare minimum.  Honesty breeds trust which breeds love.  Usually.  Most of the time.  I hope so at least.
    As we are friends (at least I assume we are if you've been willing to read this much) I make two promises to you.  I will never forsake you.  We are friends and I will keep that foremost in mind no matter what happens or comes between us whether it be money, time, or women (or anything else likely to.  I just find those come up more often than not).  I will never lie to you, but I will probably be forced to deceive you at some point.  It might be about a crush I harbor on you or a something you've done that bothers me (because I try awful hard to keep that first promise and haven't ever broken it, as far as I know, and would hate for you to be the first one to prove me wrong) or whatever, but I will probably avoid the subject or talk in such a way that you won't ever know what is actually going on, but will still feel satisfied.
  5. Hypocrisy.  You see what I just did.  I was a hypocrite.  I am expecting others to do that which I am unwilling to do.  First off, I'm sorry about that.  Please forgive me, cause seriously it isn't something I can change.  There are things about me you won't accept, because you just don't know me well enough.  The way I define hypocrisy is important though.  It is the expecting of something you are unwilling to do.  This can be a physical actions, something as simple as asking someone to build a part correctly or to pick someone up after school.  More often though I find it is emotional and mental things.  I expect other people to be as compassionate and forgiving as I try to be, but I often fail at it.
    I believe there are two other parts to hypocrisy:  Giving advice you would not follow yourself and not following that which you know to be true.  Just to combine them, I believe we should only give advice we know to be true.  For the sake of calming opposition, believing is seeing so all truth is individual.  Debate me all you want (seriously, if you disagree with me I'd love a second opinion).  So, when I someday write down my list of truths (there are currently fifteen) please understand you might disagree with them, but that doesn't make them any less true.  So, when we know something is true, when we've had enough experience in this life that something about it just needs to be defined in order for us to deal with it, we need to be willing to accept and follow it.  One of my truths is that "if the truth hurts change it."  It's a little harsh, but I spend a great deal of time and energy making sure every fact in my life is not going to hurt during those moments I'm forced to look back on myself and realize what I did wrong.  I spend a great deal of energy making sure my definitions of this life don't make me feel bad about myself or others.  If I don't do that, I'm a hypocrite and am held liable in the eyes of man.
  6. Ignorance.  Since we're talking about truth, I'm gonna keep going with it.  Ignorance is the refusal to learn and grow, the refusal to face and accept truth, and the refusal to learn who we are as individuals.  I find ignorance is kind of a deception of the self.  It is the individual choosing to be a sheep in the herd instead of an individual worth something more.  It's willingly pulling the wool over our own eyes.  It is...I don't got no more sheep references...sorry.  If we refuse to grow, we stay very comfortable right where we are.  We move neither up nor down, neither left nor right.  We tell ourselves we are safe.  The problem is the world moves around us so we lose our footing and fall.  We stagnate and become wretched creatures not content with anything.  We can't just stay safe, we have to explore and learn.  If not, we are condemn to be thrown with restless violence round about this pendent world. Or to be worse than worst...imagine howling.  Props to whoever gets the reference.  It's a great play.  Also, refusing to learn truths that life attempts to teach us I find is also a sin.  If you know that you are miserable when you get drunk, but do it because your friends are...you're an idiot to drink!  If you don't like working manual labor, but tell yourself it's the only way to make enough money to be happy...you're an idiot!  I'm not even going to be nice about this one.  If you do something that makes you unhappy in the attempt to make yourself or another happy, you have no idea what is going on and need to get ahold of yourself.  If you have something to teach yourself, just learn it already.  You'll be happy.
    I find the refusal to learn who you are is one of the most tragic things in this life though.  Why wouldn't we want to know what makes us who we are?  Why wouldn't we want to know what turns us on, excites us, or makes us tick?  Is it truly that terrifying to learn of the man or woman behind the mask?  Yes.  It is that terrifying.  It is the scariest thing we can do, break ourselves down enough to see who truly stands in the mirror.  But we've got to do it if we ever wish to be successful, happy, or move on.
  7. Forgetting.  Finally, the end.  Forgetting is, in a sense, the opposite of ignorance and I believe it to be a higher sin.  As ignorance is the refusal to learn, forgetting is taking what we've learned and throwing it away.  We forsake the truths we've learned, the experiences that taught us those truths, and the people who taught us how to be human.  When we forget our past we forget what made us up to be who we are and when we forget who we are we forget our goals and aspirations.  We lose our purpose and I think that is one of the scariest things in this life.  Without a purpose I have no reason to live and that truth can wear on you pretty quick.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Dante's Couple

(So this was written quite some time ago. I keep editing it every time I look back on it, but will post it in its present form. It is inspired by the sign posted at the entrance of Dante's Inferno, which was conveniently posted on the door of a couple friends)

Part 1:

By Zeus' mighty arm, I spied a man, with not guile nor charm, bent upon a hill with his wife, ill. A brilliant flash with thunderous crash illuminate actions rash. A bold oath to slay them both so he'd not live to cry. A simple lie to keep them together in the tumultuous weather.

Part 2:

A tisket, a tasket, a journey in a basket to the place of forsaken race. Where men are treated as beef on their way to eternal grief and women lose hope as they learn to cope with the pain for their vain gains. Lucifer's domain.

Abandon all hope ye who enter here,
for ye shall learn to fear.

Hope is no blessing, but a curse. Only evidence of worse, much worse to come. For the sum all the forsaken souls is equal to but one righteous' whole. God's eyes do not blink, but nor do they think to judge a man as a man, instead of a tool in His hand.

Part 3:

A wife lays still. A man becomes ill. A bloodied knife claims a life. Now two. He knew the cost of having lost his life, his wife. His soul departs as his heart breaks in the wakes of despair. He no longer cares. A journey together in order to weather the slaying storm which formed in her heart. A parting act. A death pact.

His soul froze as he witnessed his rose's ascent with the consent of St. Peter, who freed her. Chilling hands wrapped bands about his soul and began to pull. As tears filled his eyes he heard her sighs. He realized his mistake. She had been faking for their sake. Her sinless soul saved to walk the gilded path paved in Heaven. His corrupt corpse condemned to forever dwell in the hushed silence of his own Hell.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Ten Things

Ten things I wish I could say to 10 people. These aren't meant to be any person in particular, but have been things I've wished to say to several particular people at different times. (well, most of them have been meant more than one person)

  1. I love you now and forever. I'm always gonna be there. I'm always gonna protect you. I'm gonna screw up over and over, but as long as you'll wait for me, I'll wait for you, and we'll make it together.
  2. I'm an idiot and I make a lot of mistakes. Please excuse me for misunderstanding and not being eloquent enough.
  3. You are colorful...but I don't mean that a good way. Please...please clean yourself up and find happiness again. I got my act together, that was the deal.
  4. Honestly, I was more interested in figuring out your past and present than figuring out how to include myself in your future.
  5. Why can't you trust me?
  6. Yes, we've drifted apart, but do we actually have anything to say?
  7. I really do/did like you, but it was just the time was wrong.
  8. I hope we save the world someday.
  9. I apologize for all our arguments (I'm kinda lame about what to argue sometimes), but I kinda think they helped define our relationship and strengthened both our views.
  10. Who are you?

Friday, April 17, 2009

The Several Fails in the Tales of Lucy Gale pt. 2

Lucy Gale was a merry ol' soul and a merry ol' soul was she. She was taken by the hand of a sickly old man, whom, with she, tried a real man to be. With a quickie outside and a rather fast drive, she was left unsatisfied by he.

His words had tempted her with fruits of knowledge and fruit of another kind. He had perverted her body with a snake and with fantasies her mind. She now had knowledge of good and evil, but knowing lust and slut are anagrams only gets you so far. She had been forced passed her bar and down on her knees, but all her plees and nos came out as please and knows. She judged him by the fruits of his labor and her sins began to show. Her innocence did little to protect her as the only response he ultimately heard was "sure." In the end, she had consented, but that was the only option he ever presented. She had said no and he said experiment. She said "I can't" and he misunderstood what she meant.

It happened. It was fast and dirty, in the gravel and dog shit. It seemed so appropriate in hindsight. Her feet and hands were scarred where they touched him and the ground. Her side was blemished where he came. It seemed so appropriate in hindsight. He sneaked off into the night, she retreated to her home. It never seemed appropriate.

I wonder if Eve ever felt guilty for that one

First off, I like having a place where I, for the most part, know who is going to be reading what I write. It is nice having a place to just rant or rave. I enjoyed writing my last post. It actually made me a little emotional. I also realized I only personally own one of my ten favorite movies (To Be or Not to Be) and my family owns only six others, with two different brothers owning the only copies of two of those movies. Meaning I only have access to 5 of my favorite movies at any given time. I do not approve.

But the real reason I wrote this is kind of embarrassing... I enjoy judo. I can get aggressive and do not have to worry because we all know the rules and aren't going out of our ways to harm each other. I can fight until my bones ache, my skin tears, and I bleed. It is very satisfying on several levels of humanity. My mortal shell is trained by others through repetition and trauma. My spirit exercises its freewill and desire by battling another. My mind has the chance to calculate, deceive, and plot against others, but in a way that will not land me in jail. My being is uplifted.

I am by no means the best in the class. I am just a yellow belt and while I could take most of the yellow belts in the class, I would still lose most of the time to some of the yellow belts. Also, there are a bunch of people who have just never tested for a higher belt. There are a few guys who just wear their white belts to mess with other people... Anyway, the moral is that I get beat up most of the time. Partly because I want to get better, so I try to spar more skilled people, and partly because I still have difficulty just holding my own. Occasionally I get a really good hold or throw in and it just works, but only occasionally.

Well, a couple weeks ago, we were doing randori, which is just simple free-style practicing, you face each other and try to throw/trip/reap the other person to the ground, and I was up against a higher belt who is substantially smaller than me (20 lbs probably). Well, using my size mostly, I do get a pretty good throw on him, but I hit him against the ground pretty hard, but he breathed out appropriately and just needed a slight breather afterwards. After I beat him, I still had time left in the imaginary match, so someone else came in. This next kid is someone I started the class with, so we are at similar experience levels. I think I'm a little bigger than him, but we're about the same height. I got a really good osoto gari on him, which is a leg reap, and he slammed into the ground. I did not mean to hit him so hard. Honestly, when I fight my legs start to shake. I get nervous when I fight. I want to win, but I don't want to get too excited and lose control. Unfortunately, I think that happened a little bit and he didn't breathe out when he hit the ground and I kinda broke his rib, which I found out today (I was wondering why he wasn't showing up in class anymore). I am glad to say I was successfully thrown twice by the next guy I sparred, but geez. I broke someone's rib. His rib had just healed too. Come on...I'm not supposed to do that.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Movies

Well, since it has been almost a month since I last posted, I have decided to start off with something rather simple. Here are my ten favorite movies and my reasons why. They aren't the most dramatic, the most daring, the most exciting, the funniest, or the best; they just happen to be my favorite movies which I will spend a great deal of effort to get you to watch and enjoy. Also, I will not be underlining titles because...that'll just take too much time.

But first, honorable mentions which came extremely close:
Casablanca, The Dark Knight, Gladiator, The Lord of the Rings trilogy, The Prestige, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind, and Howl's Moving Castle.


10) O Brother, Where Art Thou? (2000) This movie is screamingly funny. I love the characters and how they help, hate, embrace, betray, and befriend each other throughout this film. The music is incredibly beautiful (I occasionally catch myself singing "Down in the River to Pray" or whatever it is called). The lighting is gorgeous, the scenes are remarkable, the acting is delightful, the characters are vast and varied, and I love how classy of a retelling it does of The Odyssey.

9) Fight Club (1999) It's delightful. I loved the tones set by lighting and the beautiful portrayals of all the characters. I saw the twist coming a mile away, but was still fascinated and very impressed by how it was implemented throughout the film. The confusion on people's faces as the protagonist beats or berates them and then Tyler Durden coming around and helping them up or beating them further down. It made me laugh, but in that way which I have to laugh otherwise it would bother me. The themes and lessons were delectable. The fights were impressive too.

8) Newsies (1992) Come on, I had to have a musical on here. Also, it stars Christian Bale (and since I already cut The Prestige from the top ten, I was kinda wounded already). The music is lively and heart felt and performed very well. Open the gates and seize the day! come on, who doesn't want to start a riot and save the world. With a cast that you've all seen in other movies, but never known it, and choreography that simply kicks butt it is one of my fondest childhood memories and one of my favorite movies. I would watch this at any time with anyone and could probably recite every line and song.

7) Battle Royale (2001) This movie will mess you the freak up. I have never seen so much emotional and physical violence in a film and feel every moment was justified. It made me question and solidify my morals and beliefs. The ending is a little awkward, but the rest of the movie is so startlingly poignant I love it completely. To what extent will people go to protect themselves or their friends. To what extent will a government go to be self-sustaining. What can someone endure before they crack, what justifies a person, and how do our choices and friendships protect or betray us? I love this movie and I hope we see it together someday so I can rant and explain all my emotions during it. It is an excellent example of relationships and their worth in the end.

6) Inherit the Wind (1960) Ahhh, we finally get to a classic. First off, this is my favorite play. It is so powerful and helped me come to terms with some of my own dilemmas. Reading it opposite Claire is one of my favorite memories. Also, it has Spencer Tracey in it. Do you really want to question that? I thought not. This movie is a delightful showing of two friends who combat over religion as if it were game in a courtroom, but it is game to neither of them. This is their life, their explanation, their purpose on the line and they are being forced to either accept the truth they've been telling themselves or get lost in the fray. They both come out standing, but only one is satisfied by his work. They both win, but only one is able to celebrate his victory. They accomplished their Earthly purpose, but only one lives. This movie helped define what a movie should be in my eyes.

5) Seven Samurai (1954) No one has seen this movie. No one. Except Emily, but she is abnormal. Seriously, I think this is one of the greatest movies of all time, but no one has seen it. Also, it was remade as a western film titled The Magnificent Seven, which was later spoofed by The Three Amigos. It is also the oldest film on this list. It tells the tale of Japan as they started to abandon their old traditions and honor in order to embrace the rest of the world, but ignore the problems that still exist amongst their proletariat. A village is being ravaged by a group of bandits each season after their harvest. The village is kind of sick of this and sends someone into town in order to hire mercenaries or whomever they can find to protect the village and kill the bandits. The problem is the village has no money (so they lie about it), the samurai are scarce (but have no money so must do whatever jobs pay), and the bandits are coming soon (which doesn't need parentheses, but I want to continue the parallelism). Six samurai are hired, but a young punk, eager to prove himself, sneaks along and there are seven. They come to a spat with the villagers as the villagers have been killing rogue samurai off over the years (which is kind of justified as the samurai used to almost be worse than the bandits, but had honor and rules instead of chaos and murder), don't have the promised money, and expect the samurai to do all the work and die so they don't have to be paid. The samurai's honor overcomes them and they promise to finish the job they said they would do. The fights are tragic and lovely. The growth in all the samurai is startling and real. This is a another film everyone must see if nothing but to experience what we've been missing over the years.

4) Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969) I like how all three old flicks are right next to each other. What can't I say about this film? It's classic. It's beautiful. It's tragic. It's exciting. It's emotional. The romance is even acceptable I feel. From start to finish I was never bored, wanted something else to happen or be explained, and I never knew what was going to happen next. It's beautiful. Honestly, I can't say enough about it, so just go watch it yourself.

3) To Be of Not to Be (1983) It is a remake of a 1942 film abut WWII (which is impressive if you think we were still in WWII when the original was made). It was one of the first films to address the treatment of gays during the holocaust. It is Mel Brooks, so I think it is screamingly funny. But also one of the most captivating movies I've ever seen. There are so many one liners that I can't tell you them all right now. It is very multi-faceted as it makes you laugh, cry, anticipate, and laugh again, because it wouldn't work for Mel Brooks if it didn't.

2)
La Faute à Fidel (2006) The English title is Blame it on Fidel, but I saw it in French first, so that's the title I remember. OH MY GOODNESS!!! I love this film. Were it not for the beauty and art work the number one film has, this would win. Honestly, the last two films are so head and shoulders above the rest I don't know why the rest of the list exists. This is also my indy-pick, because no one, I assure you no one, has seen this film. At least in the US. I saw it at a French Film Festival at NAU one weekend and can't get over it. It is the only film to make me want to cry because children are playing. The film was so powerful it overcame me completely. It's the story of a young girl whose parents are French activists in the 1970's. It is also filmed entirely from her perspective. If she can't see something, such as the tops of roofs or over most things, the audience can't. But you can still hear things or see the shuffle of feet or tear gas as it permeates the crowds of protesters. This girl is subject to the skewed views of her grandmother and nanny, but then given differing views by her parents and is just confused by the whole ordeal. If you ever find a copy of this buy/steal it for me. Please!

1) Princess Mononoke (1997) If you didn't see this coming...we need to talk and then see this, because it is the most glorious thing I have ever seen. You have no idea how hard it was for me to keep any other anime from the top ten. First off, the art work is gorgeous. Each frame is hand done. Colors and outlines combine into a glory that rivals my view of celestial ideals. The characters are my favorite from any movie. The romance is beautiful, well placed, but not overpowering. The story is sweet and filled with so many ideas I can't express them all. Honestly, I can't explain or verbalize everything I learned from this movie. It shows some of the most powerful female characters I've ever seen too, all of which are based off of wolf images. The plot is long and enjoyable. My favorite part, there is no antagonist. No one forces the story to move. No one opposes the protagonist. It plays out like real life where we are surrounded by people and forces which constantly strive with each other and with us, but no one truly antagonizes us (at least if we are living the way we should). I love the relationships between people and nature. Also, a friend just told me about this, it is a scholarly text even because it addresses something often not thought of today: the emotions and dilemmas someone experiences as they are transported from a third-world/village/simply life to a first-world/big city/upbeat and crazy lifestyle. Ashitaka is taken from his gentle home to a world which does not even believe he still exists and is forced to embrace it in order to cure himself of the wounds that other-world created in him. And I love his sister! It is so tragic that she is never seen or heard from again, but it just makes the sacrifice more real to me.

Well, there they are, my favorite movies. If you haven't seen them, do it. If you have seen them, specifically with me, I hope our relationship grew because of it.